dear *****,
why am i fallin for someone who i seriously will never near in getting?
and why am i actually seriously fall? knowing it simply not love?
why the hell, there problems in my relationship now.. frustrated stupid life seems to me
my test, all of 'em nearly ends. for the first tests however. means nearly, because i have one test that still on pending. it just got postpone to some other day, which i have still no idea when. still waiting for notice of when and where will it be.
the test got postpone, because of the earthquake in Sumatera, Indonesia last wednesday. pity, cause i've been studying a lot for it. anyway, it got postpone because uitm penang could feel the some of the left over quakes or shakes. i can't feel any, which is a pity. it could be my first experience feeling it.
funny someone actually want to feel the quake right? haha. for just a little shake, wouldn't hurt. i wouldn't want something like tsunami or some real 9.0 scale quake.
and yeah, i'm lonely now. and the feeling of wanting someone to care of me just too much. hope i can handle it, slowly.
an hour left, and i'm off to class. i guess. haven't finished my lab report yet. i just can't believe that i actually forgot about this yesterday. pity me. i just thinking of my test, surely because i have test tonight. i want As it well.
this lab thingy, making me.. darn. it just give me more pressure. whose idea is this? giving me trouble with test while my day is full with lab works. sheyt. they should know how to organize their schedule well to be respected. stupidity shows, man.
anyway, i won't go cursing all over this post. ain't good for me. i have to continue my work, and it seems a lot. i have no idea whether i'll go to my class for the 12pm class or not. hope i'll go, since i purposely didn't come yesterday. hehe.
thank you, to her. atleast she online and i can talk to her for 5minutes. heck, why am i crazy with her?
dude, this is one of the best movie out there, screening in your cinemas today. you should be going out, and watch to get the feeling of this movie. jumper. David Rice is a "Jumper", a teleporter, who can go anywhere, anytime. He can see 20 sunsets in one day, whisk his girlfriend across the world in the blink of an eye and grab millions of dollars in minutes. However, his life takes a sharp turn when he finds himself pursued by a secret organisation sworn to kill Jumpers. Forming an uneasy alliance with another young Jumper, David enters a war that has been raging for thousands of years. Chased around the world, he discovers a stunning truth about his own past and his family. From the American Midwest to the streets of Tokyo and the ruins of Rome, David's global odyssey is the first chapter in an epic adventure.
nice graphics, the story line is also great. i've just watched this movie 5 minutes ago. and this is what i recommend, that is for now. i'm trying to watch more movies, after i've done my tests. 2 more to go, and i'm rockin' with more movies in my personal laptop. haha!
i thought of not watching it today. but hey, waiting for someone finishing her job. unfortunately she go straight to bed afterwards. missed her, how can i? at least i know well how to spend my time while waiting right?
a quote from her today, "I'm eager to know it too.."
i have a test tomorrow, or perhaps today. since its already 1am here in Malaysia. lovely day yesterday, maybe but i can't feel much. not really. boring, i guess but i had my fun. but when it gone, it just disappeared. poof, gone.
i feel lonely, i don't feel the fun no more. everything just not glowing like it should be. heck, i'm losing it losing everything within my grasp. before, i may have it but now it is gone. things just keep changing, and the heart is what i should be protecting.
take it as an experience in life.. maybe i will. maybe i am lucky
today is a 101% a boring day. no one could defy. seriously, this is nothing but wake up, eat, and wondering with nothing to do. heck, guess i have to spend my life this way eyh.
assignments, there is no way i'm doing it today. too lazy, and too bored. if only i just have my fun for a couple of hours, seriously i'll study for some of the hours left. but, i ain't having any fun and it's near to a whole day.
great great. i wonder still why i kept thinking of those two. haha!
come one, to punk rock lovers out there! this is damn freakin nice song, one of the best you should be listening to. guys, i introduce to you. paramore.
their website, you can just google it. you'll find enough info on this band by just looking at their official website. a friend of mine, introduce to me of this song. lazy to download it, til now. and it just damn nice! fall in love for the first time i ever heard of it.
go for two kind of songs;
paramore - misery business
paramore - crush crush crush
i'll give you a free download for, paramore - misery business mp3 here. make sure you do enjoy!
i'm in a rush now. sadly, i don't have any transportation to keep me moving. just this morning, i remembered that i have assignment to be passed today before 12.30pm. darn it! i'm in a real rush, remembering that i also need to photo states some of my notes to be given to a friend.
that's not all. i have another test tonight! i just finished my other test last night, and i have another for today. i don't even get the time to study yet. this is my nightmare, i have to, have to find a time and slip it through for my studying today. or else, i'd fail this one. stupid arse.
anyway, sorry for long gone. as you know, i have two test that got me worried. i'll be a little free on saturday, but then again i have to do my assignments. later on sunday, got myself busy with some of the university stuff that i have to attend. and more test on next week for me...
this just wrong.. man.. how mankind could handle such a pressure? ohh yes, maybe i need someone who could lullaby me to sleep everyday. right my neighbor friend? :D
when you wake up, try singing and let go. the feeling is just awesome!! that is what i did today, i wake up and sing two songs of my favorite which are,
nash - pada syurga diwajahmu
ukays - disana menanti disini menunggu
i'll be searching other songs to be added to the list. haha. this is serious fun guys! you should try it out. it feels, relax and happy to continue on the day. i'll hope today will be as interesting as having to wake up sing. haha!
good day to all. i'm happy, and you also should be. forgot all the problems for a moment, and sing out loud!
do you ever felt love? i do, and i hope i'll never use "i did" ever. having to love, and be love is a great feeling. even though, you'll fight a lot but there still time when you precious 'til the end. certain things, sometimes, you've just wish it could be.
and what if, your love grown in two? what if your love 50/50 to two girls? what if it goes to three girls in your life? do you still think it's love? or just a normal friendship love? confusing.. and keep on confusing, might left you a choice which never should be thought of.
a dilemma, of one person that is. boring sometimes, since it is just too common. but now, it happen to me. i know it isn't love, but it just felt soooo very darn good when talking to her. it ain't a surprise though, since she's very easy to be liked.
and how do you handle this? this is my question..
another of my liking. a name, i myself don't have a clue. one of my fav song. enjoy~
Isabella adalah
Kisah cinta dua dunia
Mengapa kita berjumpa
Namun akhirnya terpisah
Siang jadi hilang
Ditelan kegelapan malam
Alam yang terpisah
Melenyapkan sebuah kisah...
Terbayang lambaianmu
Salju terbakar kehangatan
Dunia di penuhi
Warna berseri bunga cinta
Kita yang terlena
Hingga musim berubah
Mentari menyepi
Bernyalalah api cinta
(1)
Dia Isabella
Lambang cinta yang lara
Terpisah kerana
Adat yang berbeza
Cinta gugur bersama
Daun daun kekeringan...
Haluan hidupku
Terpisah dengan Isabella
Tapi aku terpaksa
Demi cintaku Isabella
Moga dibukakan
Pintu hatimu untukku
Akan terbentang jalan
Andainya kau setia
Oh! Isabella....
( repeat from 1 )
today is monday. thus i have like, 3 classes i have to attend to. now, is supposed to be my 2nd. but i'm not there, not in my classes studying and learning. why? try guess.
lazy, of course. i'm not someone who can walk for 30minutes to class. that's it. will continue this babbling later. just..man.. this is my life? if it is like this forever, i'll fail completely.
like the song. penny and me, by hanson. the lyrics is just as nice. edited a bit, can be what i wish it would be. change the name to someone else's name. but, won't reveal it. because, i just like her. means, like her normal way nothing special.
her name, just in rhythms. nice fit. guess the -ny still there. so, enjoy now will ya?
Cigars in the summertime under the sky by the light,
I can feel her read my mind,
I can see it in her eyes,
Under the moon as it plays,
Like music every line,
There's a rug with bleeding dye under the fan in the room,
Where the passion's burning high,
By the chair with the leopard skin under the light,
It's always ***** and me tonight (Sayin' OhOh),
On the plane step up with both my feet,
Riding in seat number 3 on a flight to NYC,
Got my bean in a coffee cup next to my seat,
Catch the view and another good book to read,
Sitting at home over the friendly sky's,
Missin' her eyes,
It's always ***** and me tonight,
Cause ***** and me like to roll the windows down,
Turn the radio up, and push the pedal to the ground,
And ***** and me like to gaze at starry sky's,
Close our eyes, pretend to fly,
It's always ***** and me tonight, (Singing OhOh NoNoNo)
Staring at a million city lights,
But still ***** and I are all alone beneath the sky,
Feel the wind brushing slowly by,
If I could soar I would try, to take these wings and fly,
Away to where the leaves turn red,
But no matter where I am instead,
Singin' along to feelin' alright, (MmMm)
or makin' it by in the pink moonlight,
It's always ***** and me tonight,
Cause ***** and me like to roll the windows down,
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground,
And ***** and me like to gaze at starry skies,
Close our eyes, pretend to fly, (Singing OhOh)
Close our eyes pretend to fly,
It's always ***** and me tonight,
***** likes to get away,
And drown her pain, in lemonade,
And ***** Dreams Of Rainy Days,
And Nights Up Late By The Fireplace
And aimless conversations bout' the better days,
Singin' along to feeling alright, yeah,
makin' it by in the pink moonlight,
It's always ***** and me tonight,
Cause ***** and me like to roll the windows down,
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground,
And ***** and me like to gaze at starry skies,
close our eyes pretend to fly,(Sing OhOh)
close our eyes pretend to fly,
It's always ***** and me tonight,(Sing OhOh)
***** and me tonight,
***** and me tonight,
***** and me tonight.(yeah)
so now i'm here, penang again. for the miserable past hours, i've been alone. thank to my neighbor, come to the rescue. save my loneliness and get here at about 12.30am this morning. haha. later at 2am, my housemate arrive. good.
anyway, you know how my life goes. now me and my girl, is just best friends. no fun, hate it. even though still, i kept telling whoever that know me long that she is still my girl. later, they'll notice perhaps. however, today will be my first time posting something in malay. enjoy!
Aku tiada kehidupan, bila bersendiri.
Aku tiada diri, bila akal melari.
Dari padah yang berlaku, kerana kasih yang menjauh.
Aku menangis berseorang, bila tiada yang seperkara.
Aku tertidur seketika, tiada yang terhibur sunyi.
Cinta aku tetap mengembang, walau masih ada yang cuba berlari.
funny. funny how i can write a lot of post. and there already been like 17 posts in this blog. amazing isn't it? its like i'm producing 1 post in 1 day. very nice. if only i can do this in my other blog. my mobile and money blog. hahaha. surely you'll get more informations everyday right.
maybe stuff that happens in my daily life is useful. don't you think? hey, this is life. things are different and different each day. you might found yourself a good teacher here. hehehe.. telling you the stuff that i have to get through, and what i do to continue living. am i right?
anyway, turn the pages now. i'm currently obsessed with money. man, i really need money. this is the time of the life, at about my age, how money will see as the most important thing. i just wish it don't be like that, i have to create something, open up a business strategy so that i wouldn't have to worry more on money.
herm, i'll post more on money later. but i will not tell no one my strategy. haha! you wish! this is life man, if you tell others your strategy you'll have your downtime. ohh btw, i just earn myself a total of RM200. yes, i know, i'm good~
things came up. unable to runaway from it. questions keep on coming. unable to answer any of it.
my life ends, without an ending. today it goes by, float like a paper on water, the flow of the river.
2years, 9months, and 2 days.
you'll try to get over it. and yes, you'll regret you ever decided. already am. but i can't change it, things and matters have to has an answer. this is the answer, this is the ending. tomorrow may not be as cheerful as yesterday been. because today made it skip happiness and blank.
made your point clear. best friends forever. perhaps, wish not the love fly far. by this minute, after this minute pass, i am no longer happy no longer feels the happiness of being with you.
my love, we will continue life not knowing the feeling we put far behind. the feeling that already carve on our heart. the feeling of love, together that is forever bond.
Name : BioShock
Genre : First-Person Shooter, Action
Publisher : 2K Games, Irrational Games
Language : Multi
Release Date : August 24, 2007
Audience Rating : Mature 17+
BioShock is a unique game that mixes a spine-chilling setting illustrated with art deco art and architecture, sci-fi themes of bio-genetic mutation and self-modification, a deep storyline with open-choice freedom to interact with the world as you choose,
and first-person action that requires you to think every time you pull the trigger.
hardest thing in life,
is when you trying to figure,
what exactly the life is about.
it could be one of the twelve hundreds things,
that always in your thoughts,
or it's just meant to be this way.
what do you have in mind,
doesn't really count in what lies in this life.
depressed or impressed,
it's nothing compared to what would be the future.
when you have decided what your life should be,
it will then change themselves,
to be other than what you've set it in mind.
the same thing goes with love in your life,
you'd felt the same thing,
with another girl that came up in your life.
every each of us,
have their own unique design and structure.
every each of us,
hardly knows what the heck that they're thinking.
every each of us,
simply try to make life as if it's their own.
every each of us,
knows that love could be the reason of all the changes.
what do you have in mind,
a girl that you want to live with forever.
depressed or impressed,
the girl might change to someone else.
bear in mind on how your life goes,
when it is you day to know,
you might find yourself in the waves of your life.
the same thing goes with the girl in your dreams,
she could leave you then,
and life ends without an ending.
fly to her arms,
miss her as if she will leave you forever.
hug her in your arms,
and love her as if you will live with her forever.
-created by me, thezulns.
since i'm in wonders, thus i ask this kind of questions. things happen, so it does. now its happening to me. it gives me opportunity, one that keep flowing in my thoughts. sheit! i want it. i want to take it badly.
what will you do? what will you choose? will you change the flow of things besides you, and take the opportunity, or you afraid and just let normal things flow? will you have guts, to try something new, as the possibility to fail is always there. what will you do, will you take it?
i really need your opinions on this matter. even though you did not know, just let me have something. hope, or a statement of truth.
haha.. feel ages that i haven't write in here. but, then again its only been 2 days. so fun, now i'm back in shah alam. and i just can't believe my eyes. i'm seeing slow stream video in here! omg omg!! hell, i just can't believe it, that in penang my streamyx connections is much much faster!
much faster why is said that?? i can stream video, and watch it on the spot. and for one line, we share up to 7 desktops and laptops.. and here, only for 4 computers! heck, i'm going back to penang this very minutes, for faster DSL line there. haha!!
neighbors been saying wants to pull the plug if it's too slow, (we're sharing the line) since they owns the modem. heck, they will never pull the plug. i can give 'em prove that in shah alam is freakin' slower!!
Shah Alam:
Penang:
see the different? uhh.. yeah penang is faster by 200~300kb/s!!
going back to shah alam. as i will leave my rented house for a week. pity her, she'll be missing us all, the house mates. ohh and mostly me. :D trying out my emotions too. haha.
i have to be learning all the way, my holiday. will be filled with studies. i have tests coming up after the break. hate it, why do they kill all the fun? why can't they give us all a REAL break. sometimes, i do want sometimes off from the book. hey, holidays between semester is different kay.
all my neighbors had already gone back home. only we, waiting for the right time to go back. some will get their bag packed tonight, and some might just get home tonight. i'll be off tomorrow night. seriously will be missing this home, even for a week. haha.
not exactly this home, it'll be the neighbors really. :P
so have it whatever ways, i still will write stuff in here. just...don't forget to wish me luck on my tests later.